Sunday, 7 December 2014

Sunday Spotlight - 7th December 2014

In my life this week…

Advent calendar

So this week saw the start of another month, but more importantly it saw the start of advent, which can only mean one thing…Christmas is coming!! This year I decided I was going to make my own advent calendar because I’m finding some days I just don’t feel well enough to eat chocolate and I wanted to do something that would suit me a bit better. So, I went on eBay and managed to find myself a plain wooden advent calendar, which I quickly ordered. Once it had arrived I gave it a lick of paint, put some handles on the doors, added a star, numbers and copious amounts of glitter and this was the finished result. My Mum then very kindly said that she was happy to fill it for me so that I had surprises, rather than doing it myself, so obviously I wasn’t going to turn her down! I’m really happy with the finished product and it’s something I will be able to use year after year now. So far this week I’ve had chocolate on a couple of days, a Yankee candle, some lip balm and some glittery nail varnish, and I’m excited to see what is still to come!

Gran’s Birthday

On Friday my Gran (who lives with us) turned 91, which I think is pretty darn amazing. Unfortunately she has the end stages of dementia, so is really not too well at all, but we tried to make it as special as possible for her. I bought her a beautiful arrangement of flowers, which resulted in a beaming smile on her part. Then today we had some family over for lunch and birthday cake and amazingly my Gran was really alert and knew exactly what was going on, which was such a blessing. We got some lovely photos of her with her family and I’m planning on making them into a book for her for Christmas, as she does love to look at photos.

Asking for help

Overall, this week has been pretty awful if I’m honest. I’m really struggling mentally at the moment and recently asked to be referred to our local eating disorder service for some help with coping with my eating disorder. I went to see them on Monday and basically they are refusing to help me. To say I was devastated would be an understatement. If I’m honest I was ready to drive my car into a tree, and I have no idea how I managed to get myself safely home. I was quite frankly disgusted with the way they spoke to me and subjected me to being weighed, knowing they weren’t going to offer me any support. Their reasons for not helping me are because they said they’ve already helped me once and that I don’t fit their criteria (basically I’m not underweight enough). I just find it ridiculous that someone needs to get to a point where they have compromised their physical health to such an extent that their life is in danger before they will be given help for a MENTAL illness. So, I’m at a complete loss about what to do now. I’m still struggling and I’ve now been told I won’t be getting any support, so I’ve just got to continue to struggle on my own. There’s only so much I can do on my own and it scares me that I could potentially lose my life because I don’t fit a certain criteria. You only have to look to the news to see how much the mental health services in this country are failing vulnerable people, but I just wonder how many people have to die before something will be done.

Image from Weheartit

What has grabbed your attention this week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing something that makes it onto my list next week!

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