Sunday, 21 September 2014

Sunday Spotlight - 21st September 2014

In my life this week…


One of the little things I really enjoy about being at college is being able to organise myself. I’m a bit of a organisation fiend when it comes to studying, and this week I’ve been getting all my folders and paperwork sorted out. I’ve bought a couple of new folders, so I have one for each subject and have spent an afternoon punching holes in papers and popping in dividers. It just seems to make me feel so much calmer once it’s done and my head feels a bit less messy when I know everything is in it’s place. I’m up-to-date on homework and have actually had time to see a friend this weekend. I’m sure this calm feeling won’t last, so I’m making the most of it while I can!

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DVD day

Like I said above, this weekend I actually had some time to catch up with a friend. It was much needed for both of us, as we’ve both started new things this September and are extremely tired. We didn’t really feel up to going out anywhere or doing anything too energetic, so instead, we decided to spend the afternoon watching DVDs and doing some knitting. It was really lovely to have something to focus on for a few hours and to be able to spend some time with a friend, as I’ve been feeling pretty lonely recently.

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Things are tough

I try not to be too down in my blog posts, because although I feel it a lot of the time, I don’t want to project it on to other people and leave them feeling bad after reading my posts. But these last few weeks, things have been incredibly tough and I wanted to be honest about how I’m feeling at the moment. My mood has been incredibly low and I’m really struggling with my eating disorder. I’ve tried speaking to my nurse and asking for an appointment with my psychiatrist, but apparently she’s too busy at the moment. The reality is that I’m too fat to qualify for help with an eating disorder and not important enough to get any help with my depression. It makes me feel pretty worthless to be honest, and to make matters worse I seem to be losing people I thought were friends at every opportunity. I have always tried my best to be there for other people when they’ve needed someone, and find it incredibly hurtful when people can’t do the same for me. I honestly don’t know how things are going to improve at the moment, so I will apologise in advance if my posting is a little more sporadic, while I try to get through this difficult time.

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What has grabbed your attention this week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing something that makes it onto my list next week!

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